This week has seemed to be my ‘stretch’ week. It all has felt overwhelming, too much and too hard. Almost to the point where if I had an out, I would have taken it like 3 times TONIGHT!!
I have felt stretched with my daily readings this week, finding my inner peace to sit for 15 min, without moving and trying to train my thoughts to not pop into my space during that 15 min and refining my Definite Major Purpose (DMP). My DMP is my purpose in life, how I want my life to look, it is like the script to MY movie I call Life.
Sounds easy yeah?? That’s what I thought too. I’ve been working on mine for the past 3 weeks along with my Guide Darren. It all started out great, I got what I wanted out on paper, which is really hard for me. If you have ever received a birthday card/card from me that has more than the standard ‘Happy Birthday I hope you have a wonderful day’ SAVE IT!! Like go to the framing place and get that Framed because they are RARE!!! One of my Love Languages is ‘Gift Giving’ I LOVE buying presents/gifts for family and friends, I put a lot of thought into them and love the process of finding the perfect gift for them. I then get to their card and seriously spend 3 days trying to figure out what to write, how do I say what I mean and feel?? And then after the 3 days I still have not figured it out, so I get Miss 4-year-old to draw a pic in it and we are done. Moral of that story is I STRUGGLE to find the words to express how I feel. They just are not there and my DMP is WORDS, WORDS about how I feel and what I want and why I want them and by when??? ARRRRRR inside my head I’m going RUN!!! RUN FAST AND DON’T LOOK BACK!
So why am I still here?? Because I can not let that part of me win anymore! I need to take control, that is why I’m here, doing the Master Key Experience, to create new GOOD habits to replace my old BAD habits that no longer serve me. Did I get it done? For this week YES. Is it perfect? NO. Will I need to revise it next week? YES! But it is all part of the process of stretching and growing. Its stretching me WAY outside my comfort zone. Am I ok with this? Right now, NO, but I know its for the Good and that nothing happens inside your comfort zone, because if it did, we would all have what our hearts desire. It is the people who step outside their comfort zone that grow and achieve all their hearts desires, and that is where I want to be. So, I have a little pity party, call a friend for support (she just told me the same thing my Guide had already said but in other words) and get it done!
And for this week I have almost completed all my tasks, all that remain are my daily readings. Which I know I can do and will continue to do them because I have been doing them for the past 3 weeks.
So, until next week I hope you have a day.